Those Little Taste Buds…

What a crazy weekend!!! My intuitive abilities are going crazy. I had a customer in on Friday, chatted about nutrition, raw and flower essences and guessed her father’s star sign without thinking about it. This is the fourth or fith time that this has happened lately. We had a great conversation. She was pisces.

Later I joined my BF and five other friends (including D&G) in North Greenwich. D saved a boy who was stuck in the sand!!! He was glowing afterwards. Then we were walking past a huge plant with a big flower stem sprawled across the walkway. He spent ages putting it straight and weaving the stem around the others to stop it from falling again. I could feel his heart chakra opening up like a flower. I said to D&G ‘you know what that was about don’t you?’ referring to the life-saving incident (the tide was on its way in!!) and they both burst into laughter. They were thinking along the same lines. I had warned them that a course of BFE’s Fringed Violet and Angelsword might cause strange things to happen. I felt that the universe had given him the opportunity to heal some karma/raise his vibrations (the essences don’t just do it for you, you know!!)

Next we went to a pub and performed a group rendition of Bohemian Rhapsody. My friend from InSpiral, C, (he stayed at our place on Thursday night)  lives in Crystal Palace so BF, D and I went to his place. D and C didn’t go to bed and decided to drag me up just before dawn, to show me Crystal Palace Park, with the dinosaurs. I enjoyed it but I was extremely gnarly for the rest of the day (I din’t get to sleep till  at least 3am).  Nutters. I was invited to Stonhenge for the solstice but had a community party to attend in Bow. It was lovely. They had made colourful paper lanterns for the garden and there was a bonfire and a cake competition. I met two raw foodies living there and had amazing chats. The very nutty raw food cake won joint 1st in the cake competition. My friend J looked fabulous in his black velvet skirt suit, 1970s ruffled shirt and new half shaved hairdo. We stayed up chatting till 8 and I did a healing on my friend J and K, one of the raw foodies. I was surprised to find that my healing ability has not waned. I guess it is here to stay. (it has appeared spontaneously over the last few months)

What a lovely household, party, friends, parks… weekend.

I had a lovely bath at my friends house when at Crystal Palace (he lives with his Mum). I love having bath’s in friends’ houses. Particularly when they live with their parents and you get a Mum showing you the clean towels in the airing cupboard. This was a bath of generous proportions too in a small bathroom with no toilet (I find this relaxing as you know that no-one will be hassling you) and good energy. Something about the whole experience makes me feel nostalgic for the many nomadic months (maybe years) that I spent in Wales as a teenager, staying at friends houses and returning to my place to return the favour or stock up on clean clothes. Such a beautiful pace of living. The whole experience was very comforting and evocative of the Welsh spirit hospitality that I miss so dearly. It also harked back to a delicious time of few responsibilities beyond keeping my Dad in the loop and collecting my weekly pocket money.

I have eaten a lot of cooked food this weekend (as a proportion of total food intake, which has not been a lot). But the interesting thing to note is that the cooked food has not spoiled my taste for raw. I used to oreder kebabs sans salad, because I didn’t see the point, and I never did find iceberg lettuce and slimy tomatoes appealing. But this weeked I have been helping myself to glassfuls of Aloe, platefuls of salad and bags full of leaves and I have enjoyed it. My tastebuds are changing and green is no chore. I think that my softly, slowly approach is working well for me. Also I am loving coconut water, Aloe and raw choc. Not a shot of Aloe but a glassful. Not a small carton of coconut water but a litre. Chocolate I am being more careful with. One day I might have two bars, the next day none. It really supresses my appetite. All of it feels vey nourishing and alkalising. I have been thinking about metabolic typing, blood types, doshas. I think my type might be; thrives on superfoods. I am slim and I don’t need a huge amount of calories. I need nourishment. The cooked food is OK. I will find my balance. I am really enjoying this.

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InSpiral again

I’m in InSpiral and very high on raw chocolate and coconut water. I had a beautiful day in the health food shop. Friendly faces old and new. Customers I haven’t seen for a very long time… very rewarding exchanges of information. total overload!!! And now someone has started playing All You Need Is Love!!!! Gorgeous!!! Someone found a touring notebook, planted by an art student!!! I bought a platter of raw choc balls, and introduced about 8 random cool people to it’s incredible psychoactive properties!! Now there is a sound healer behind me!!!!! Ahhh, it’s all too much… I love it, I love it, I love it. The only problem in my life right now, as far as I can see, is the fact that GITMR is under maintenance. F**K me, is raw choc a powerful antidepressant- I certainly didn’t feel that way a few months ago.

Bliss

And OMG OMG, the whole reason Icame here was to meet my very dear friend who I haven’t seen in months, and he’s downstairs, and he gave me handmade boxes. And he’s lovely.

Mmmmmmm….

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inSpiral chocolate balls

A few things-

Almost everyone in my house wants a colonic now!!! Hopefully this will promote peace and harmony in the house as everyone lets go of colonic baggage.

I went to check out inSpiral last night (just as New Horizons is finishing, thank you law of sod) and it was lovely. It has somewhat alleviated my sorrow at the demise of the Psychedelic Dream Temple to know that this new joint has sprung up. I had a good leaf through the raw books on sale and sampled the delicious chocolate balls. I will definitely be going back, even though it is a bit far away from me. I’ll be keeping my eye on the talk’s schedule.

I have been taking a great flower essence combo for a good few days now; Australian Bush Flowers Fringed Violet, Angelsword and Christmas Bell. I am beginning to ride what I like to call the delightful wave of serendipity and bounced home on the bus last night in an almost Zen like state. Can’t wait to see what happens in a couple of weeks. The BF has made a list of flower essences that he wants to take in sequence. He has been delayed by the need to obtain organic brandy (I told him that this is very difficult to find- I have been using apple cider vinegar) and now he has started on Boab. Also he is doing another liver/gallbladder flush today. It is so nice to not have to harass him into doing things. He is motivating himself now which is lovely- I hate playing parent. D is taking Angelsword and Fringed Violet. The garden shed is getting a clearout. Business ideas are being thrown around. Drug taking is grinding to a slow halt. Herb gardens are being watered. The whole house (8 people!!) is starting to connect and evolve. Even the dedicated boozers and meat eaters and cigarette smokers are enquiring about the liver flush and colonics.

We (BF, G and I) have been experimenting with the onion bread recipe. We found that it works better as a staple without the olive oil and liquid aminos. Also I created a sweet version. I substituted apples and bananas for the onions and lemon and prune juice for the Nama Shoyu/liquid aminos. Also I added fresh ginger, clove, ginger powder and cinnamon. It is gorgeous!! I had it for breakfast yesterday with fresh banana slices and blueberries. Yum yum. The recipe is having a therapeutic effect on everyone’s bowels. All the flax you see. We also made the fantastic discovery that eating the onion bread with banana goes some way towards alleviating expensive durian cravings!! This bread is fab. Definitely a new staple.

After a few weeks of no work, I am starting work again. It will be interesting to see how this impacts on my ability to stick to a predominantly raw diet. Luckily I will be in a health food shop and will have access to fresh juice and produce. The main challenge will be surviving between breaks. It will be a great opportunity to compare my blood sugar stability with the last time I was working. I tend not to notice such things when I can dip into the fridge whenever I want. But now I will be noting all the peaks/slumps etc.

Two more things:

1) My healing ability has massively increased, to the point of scariness. I was drawn into a three hour healing session!!

2) My dream of community living is beginning to manifest. Watch this space!!

Eating: I am eating some cooked. I am not concerned about rushing 100% raw. I will get there in the end. I will be more relaxed now about the steps I need to take because I am earning money again. Looked into getting sprout able grains wholesale. Next step- farmers markets. Oh- and growing our own stuff!! Ohohoh, and learning about wild greens!!!

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Onion Bread!!!

I have had my colonic with the wonderful Suki and it was delightful. I am still getting occasional bit of abdominal pain but I am sure that the colonic has eased things a bit. Certainly the cystitis-like symptoms that I was having that day eased immediately. Also she gave me some great advice. I chose Suki because she has a detailed and informative blog and advocates raw living. Her reading list and links page will keep me occupied for several months yet will save me years of stumbling around trying to find the right information. For this I am very grateful.

Yesterday the BF planted a herb garden and I spent the morning making bread. It was very evocative of my pre-London lifestyle; sitting in the garden, birds singing, bees humming. The bread was ready today- the famous onion bread (credited to Matt Amsden: RAWVolution). It worked well. I expect it to become a staple in our raw pantry. I found a recipe online in cups;

1 cup flax seed, ground, 1 cup sesame seed, ground, 3 large onions, shredded, half a cup of Nama Shoyu and one quarter cup of olive oil. Mix together, spread and dehydrate.

I used Liquid aminos but it was a lot less than half a cup, more like a quarter. I didn’t replace it with water, as it seemed I could spread the mixture without it and I figured it would dehydrate more quickly. It worked a treat, the BF likes it but I will use a little less oil next time. Also I would like to try it with shredded apple, sultanas and spice and I will experiment with raw seasonings to replace the Nama Shoyu (I haven’t found this in the shops yet but I have read anyway that it is not really raw and I’m pretty sure liquid Amino’s isn’t raw).

I bought another raw book from Whole Foods (I usually buy on Amazon, so this is an expensive habit but I really can’t help it when I see a raw book) ‘The Raw Food Detox Diet’ by Natalia Rose. I am not really into ‘diet’ books but I thought I mind find some useful recipes in there. I would say that it is miles ahead of your typical diet book thanks to the raw focus but the format did irritate me. It includes a questionnaire, which allows you to find out your raw transition number. This leads to a psychoanalytic (and for me inaccurate) paragraph telling you what your health and weight loss habits and concerns are, followed by tailored meal plans. These include cooked and animal products, because, the author reasons, not everyone is ready to go 100% raw as the subsequent detoxification process is very fast and can be uncomfortable for some.

I can see the sense in her approach but after extracting what looked like the best recipes I lent the book to a friend who is trying to lose weight. There was a lot of sugar in the form of maple syrup, agave and dates, which doesn’t really suit me. There is a nice recipe for ‘green lemonade’ but I had already found a version of this intuitively. I use a couple of sticks of celery, some fennel, a handful of spinach, a whole lemon, a clove of garlic and an apple and juice everything.

My favourite raw book (so far) is ‘Living Cuisine’ by Renee Loux Underkoffler, because she explains sprouting and fermenting (esp. of nuts and seeds into ‘cheeses’) in detail. Also she is a chef and her recipes taste great. I also enjoyed Victoria Boutenko’s ‘12 Steps to Raw Food’- there are just a few recipes but they are presented in such a way that it is easy to vary the ingredients. This book is mostly theory and explains very well the unsuitable nature of cooked food. It was instrumental in motivating me to strive for 100% or high raw.

Strolling through the supplement aisles at Whole Foods was a liberating experience for me. I didn’t want or feel that I needed anything. I have been selling supplements for three years and this is a new feeling for me. I actually argued with the BF because he wanted to get some vitamin C. I told him that it would be better to buy some acerola and use it in a raw recipe. I used to spend a lot on supplements and it is rather joyless swallowing all those pills and paying so much money for them. I am also spending more time in the kitchen and garden than I have done for years and life seems to have slowed down to a very relaxing pace, but in a good way. We used to live on organic hummus, prepared soups and rice cakes and now we are bringing home bagfuls of fresh produce. It feels right.

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Update!!!

G just called from work to say that he has now passed ‘hundreds’ of stones and is coming home early. D has now passed about 20 stones and BF is about to leave for his colonic. He has started passing green sludge and feels left out because he hasn’t seen any stones yet. But he’s getting a colonic!! Can’t wait for mine on Friday.

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Post Gallgasmic Ill- With Colonics

So now it’s day 4. Wow, wow wow, the butternut squash soup with pesto on day 1 was amazing. It was from Renee Loux Underkofflers’ book, ‘Living Cusine’. I have a lot of trust in this woman, she is a raw chef and seems to have a really good understanding of flavours.

Day 2 began with a smoothie; mango, banana, avocado (only one between four of us) and a bunch of juices that i can’t remember. There was lots of snacking on raw fruit and veg and we had a lovely soup in the evening, followed by an amazake, blueberry and passionfruit dessert. A rather indulgent day but it kept the BF, D&G from bickering. A decided not to join us, on the basis that she would find it too difficult to give up smoking or reduce it to a low level. She has decided to do the flush sometime after she has quit smoking.

Unfortunately after the smoothie I got a nasty cystitis flare-up. I had a real panic when I started spotting because I’d never had this with cystitis before, but I soon realised that this was actually my period. Doh!! So that’s why my tummy was swollen and hurting. At the same time the effects of the Colosan were in full force- this made for a rather unpleasant dependency on the bathroom. I had to hide in there for about two hours with a pyrex jug full of water and Pure Synergy after taking loads of probiotics and some antifungals. This and my bath seemed to do the trick with the cystitis.

Later I took some Potassium Magnesium Citrate (Viridian), Zyflamend (New Chapter), Headache Take Care (New Chapter) and Gingko (Bioforce) for the period pain and walked to the shop- this seemed to help, but I’m not sure whether it was less toxic than taking a painkiller would have been, considering the combiination and potency of the herbs.

Juice day (Day 3) started out OK, but soon decended into chaos when two shopping parties failed to come up with the required goods (namely hot water bottles, olive oil and lemons) until the last minute. The BF decided to go to Argos to buy a hoover and didn’t have any juice first, then when he got back it was already time to prepare for the flush with two spaced doses of Colosan, which had to be taken on an empty stomach. There was a lot of bickering and I developed a nasty migrane at about 6pm so was not motivated to manage everyone’s behaviour and the timing of doses of Colosan, the number of lemons required and other such details. Instead I lay in bed with a pillow over my head. In the end we took the lovely oil and lemon mixture between 11 and 12-PM!! Absolutely not ideal. The BF got to bed at about 12:30!!!

Many lessons were learned. But there were successes!! G had to go to work, but he told us, spent the night rubing his liver and stomach and passed about 40 stones before work!! He bounced into our room happliy this morning to show us the photograph of them on his phone. Apparently he later buried them in the garden. I felt extremely sick straight away after drinking my mixture last night and didn’t feel well enough to take my Colosan first thing. I fell asleep with a bag of frozen peas on my head (migrane) last night feeling awful, although I slept OK in the end. I have been sitting up in bed for most of the morning, waiting for the nausea to subside.  I eventually went down for Colosan at about 11 and just started passing stones about 15 minutes ago!! I have passed a few dozen tiny ones and two rather large ones about 1cm across.

I had been considering collecting and photographing them but decided to flush them down the loo. It’s not that I am at all squeamish, I’m not very, rather that it seemed like obsessing over the past and it felt more liberating to flush them away. They were all really bright green except for one of the large ones which was sort of whiteish in colour and they floated on top of the water above all of the other poo.

I am quite surprised because although I know that my diet has been really appaling at times, I am quite slim and eat a lot less meat and food in general than other people. Also I have been through lots of healthy eating phases where I have been almost exclusively vegan and I haven’t bought dairy milk for years. On balance, however, with all of my health problems and bad habits over the years, not to mention poor childhood eating, I have conceded that there must be a lot of dodgy crap in me.

My poor BF has been suffering badly with this whole process. Yesterday he only managed one glass on apple juice due to poor planning and timing. He insisted on drinking all of his flush cocktail despite my warnings to stop before he felt sick. He couldn’t get to sleep and woke up feeling awful, then vomited, however I don’t think he got it all up as he said that he could feel the oil sitting in his stomach. He is OK now and going downstairs for his first meal. However he hasn’t passed any stools at all. Since we both felt ill this morning I called a local health clinc and booked him in for a last minute colonic, today at 2pm. We were very lucky to get the appointment as it was due to a cancellation.

He has never had a colonic before but I think that it will be excellent for him. His whole digestion/absorbtion/elimination system is behaving extremely poorly for a man of his age (he is in his early 20’s) due to work, stress, poor diet etc, as well as (to me) blatant base chakra issues. I was also able to secure an appointment for myself on friday and I am really excited!!!

D, apparently, didn’t hold onto the flush cocktail last night and it went straight through him. He hasn’t passed anything this morning but says he feels fine. He doesn’t seem dissapointed but I think that he is just going along with it for the experience anyway and because the rest of us are doing it.

So, lessons learned? Planning and preperation. Being ready. Timing and organisation. It seems thet for some of us, our ability to digest fats is not up to the task of drinking 200mls of olive oil in one go and keeping it down. Before his next flush, I have advised the BF to start taking Centaurium (Bioforce) before his meals and enzymes 15 minutes after his main meal, to observe food combining rules and generally do everything he can to improve his digestive function. Additionally we will book him in for more colonics when we can afford it. I expect that low blood sugar probably also contributed to his nausea and inability to take the cockail.

I am very happy with G’s result. I think that stress had a lot to do with his good response i.e lack of, he watched the football and juiced regularly yesterday whilst the rest of us were out shopping and panicking. He observed the rules pretty well and was fairly self motivated when it came to taking his doses of Colosan and such on time. He has been presenting a glaring candidiasis picture (reflux, fullness, bloating, severe brain fog, fatigue) and is determined to start a new healthier regime. He previously had no knowledge of candida and ate bread and drunk beer everyday. Since the first day many of his usual symptoms have dissapeared or eased.

D seems to be a bit of an anomaly. He never complains about his health, feels invincible and seems to stay slim as a beanpole whatever he eats (usually lots of cheese, bread, seafood and sweets). He has been a vegetarian (fish eating) for a couple of years and says that he feels better. I believe his positive attitude has been doing him plenty of favours regarding his health. He cheated on the regime and it didn’t work but he is not concerned and plans to continue the vegan diet with us for a few more days.

I feel that I am really beginning to heal. Apart from my migrane, cystitis flare up and period pain, an old cold sore that I only ever see when really run down popped up a couple of days ago. This confirmed for me that I am going through a healing crisis and not deficiency symptoms- I feel confident about this because I have felt well and energetic otherwise and have been eating a varied diet. I have previously gone for days just eating junk with very little good quality protein without seeing this cold sore. The process was much more uncomfortable than I was expecting because of the nausea and the healing crisis.

Next time, I will;

1) Do the flush away from my period. Apart from the pain, I also frequently get nausea, loss of appetite, moodiness and constipation around this time. All very incompatible with the flush.

2) Ensure a calm environment with all of the required items obtained and arranged beforehand, as much as possible

3) Plan an entire menu, at least for the first two days

4) Extend the preperation period by at least a few days

5) Prepare my digestive system for a few weeks beforehand with bitters, enzymes food combining etc

6) Ensure that my sleeping pattern is in good order; it is so important to eat and sleep early

7) Only use organic olive oil. We could only get conventional, this probably contributed to our bodies rejecting it

8) Do some more research

9) Eat less fruit (I usually don’t eat a lot of fruit as it can aggravate my cystitis, but ate more since the diet was otherwise restricted)

10) Have colonics beforehand and an enema kit ready

and..

11) Try not to be responsible for three fully grown men. They kept looking at me brandishing various foods and asking ‘can I have it’? I kept telling them, ‘You know the rules, I’m not giving you permission, you’re a grown man, you chose to do this, you eat what you like’. But it was quite stressful.

So that’s it. I conclude that the flush does (or at least can) work and hope to do another one in August at the latest, followed by a series of them form March onwards. Some say that the stones are congealed from the epsom salts or olive oil, but I don’t believe this. I stopped short of cutting one open to smell it or sending it to a lab, but others have done this and I can report that what we have seen looks consistent with photos on the web. Just look up liver or gallbladder flush.

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Healthy Habits? Created 5:16 05/06/08

One evening about four weeks ago, I was lying in bed (as you do) reading ‘Naked Chocolate’ by David Wolfe and Shazzie. I had acquired this at a trade show last summer. For some reason, after six years of learning seriously about nutrition, the penny dropped and the raw philosophy finally clicked with me. I was fatigued, constantly close to tears, depressed, typically achieving almost nothing with my day and I was supposed to be studying for four exams and writing an undergraduate dissertation.

My knowledge of nutrition had given me access to symptomatic relief from many of my symptoms and I knew how to embark upon a detoxification regime if things got really bad, but I had never really got a handle on many of my deeply rooted problems, particularly behavioural ones. I was so inspired by ‘Naked Chocolate’ that I started to cry (those hormones again!!). My colleagues and myself had mocked the raw foodists coming into the health food shop as extreme, but I now realised with crystal clarity that this reaction had been out of fear. I was now ready for a really new life. I vowed there and then to go 100% raw. I now realise that this is quite a process, not something to be embarked on overnight by most.

The next day I ate about 80% raw and felt high and alert. For the first time in weeks, I didn’t need an afternoon nap and I didn’t cry. I had virtually no money at this time and had to wait for about four days before receiving my next student loan instalment. After persuading my boyfriend, I spent most of our last £40 on two books, ‘Eat Smart Eat Raw’ by Kate Wood and ‘Living Cuisine’ by Renee Loux Underkoffler; from Waterstone’s in Piccadilly Circus. I knew that they would be cheaper on Amazon, but I just couldn’t wait. The next morning, there was nothing fresh left to eat so I reluctantly sat down to a bowl of organic muesli. After a few spoonfuls, I bust into tears. The familiar drowsy feeling had returned. As soon as my student loan came in, we went straight out and ordered a Stockli dehydrator and a second hand Twin Health twin gear masticating juicer online and bought a fancy Kenwood food processor from John Lewis.

My boyfriend and had a whale of a time playing with the various attachments and unpacking the stuff as it arrived from EBay a few days later. As our housemates glared at and mocked us, we restored the 1950’s style juicer to a hygienic state (it had arrived in very poor condition, thick with sticky juice residue and with a lot of damage to the gears and screens, much to our initial disappointment) and rapidly started juicing everything in sight. My boyfriend, who had spent the previous 16 months working 65 hours a week for a very large and well known estate agent, quickly became my ‘juice boy’ and pretty much instantly swapped his Full House Double Decadence Domino’s Pizza’s for cocktails of celery, garlic, fennel, cucumber, apple, carrot and lemon juices.

Since then we have tried raw soups, a disastrous nut curry, corn crackers, chocolate puddings (for breakfast- yum!) and avocadoes in many guises. We have been far from 100% raw but I feel that this will not happen until we have got a sprouting factory set up in the kitchen and can start including flat breads in our diet. Additionally several other changes need to take place!!

Since my epiphany a new party-loving housemate has moved in with us and my boyfriend and I have been enjoying ourselves a little too much. In addition I have been co-directing a play and have had to finish my exams. My last exam was on Tuesday morning and I am really excited that instead of relying on my long-suffering boyfriend (who has been having a break from work these last few weeks- and he is not going back to that company thank goodness) I can now throw myself fully into a healthier high-raw lifestyle. It seems the perfect time to do a week long liver cleansing programme with a flush on the third day and I have miraculously persuaded my boyfriend and three housemates to join me!!!

We start tomorrow and I will document this as much as possible. A big challenge for me will be to reverse my nocturnal hedonism-warped sleeping pattern, as I know that my liver will need proper rest. Wish me luck!!!!

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